tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post8875844413852806103..comments2021-11-12T00:39:32.400-08:00Comments on Our roller coaster ride through infertility and more: Me outside this blogNikkihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15469466620967385694noreply@blogger.comBlogger8125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-73897298314268046242008-09-22T18:15:00.000-07:002008-09-22T18:15:00.000-07:00Great post, Nikki! You always sound sweeter and s...Great post, Nikki! You always sound sweeter and sweeter and it's too bad we live so far apart! It would be great to know you in real life. :)<BR/>I agree, we all seem to become our "problem" and it's nice to remind ourselves that we're so much more. <BR/>You give me so many good ideas for my blog -- but then I don't want to look like I'm stealing your ideas!! :)Laurenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07547132736468583637noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-47065388340516169652008-09-22T09:13:00.000-07:002008-09-22T09:13:00.000-07:00Thanks for this post and the reminder that our inf...Thanks for this post and the reminder that our infertility does not define us.I Believe in Miracleshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07062124038472752680noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-11762801623736736972008-09-22T08:33:00.000-07:002008-09-22T08:33:00.000-07:00What a great post, I have a book on Cancer (it cam...What a great post, I have a book on Cancer (it came with my vita-mix blender, I dont have cancer)<BR/>But I read the first couple pages in it and one thing it says is "Dont focus on what's wrong with you, focus on what's right with you", so what a great reminder to do that.<BR/>It is aslo so nice to get to know more about you, you put into words very nicely many things I see in my self. We have so many similarities. <BR/>I would have to say the only difference is I cry instead of laugh, I cry when I think something is funny, it sucks so bad to - it's totally embarrassing, I am such an emotional person, and I actually think the little lever in the emotion box that controls laughter is the same one that controls crying, my laughter button is just defective so I mostly cry instead.<BR/>I watch a funny movie, tell or hear a joke that’s funny? I’ll be over there bawling my eyes out. Well – not that bad, sometimes I think people think I don’t have a sense of humor because I show little emotion, but that’s me holding back the embarrassing tears. BUT HEY, If you see me crying, you know I think it's funny! .... Usually. <BR/>And I totally gravitate to people who laugh a lot, sometimes their laughter rubs off on me and I find my self able to laugh (till I cry) and it feels so good to laugh like that, a real true deep laugh, I don’t get to often :( <BR/>And I have to admit, I love time with the girls, But it’s more retreat type hanging out, Lunch - facials, movie night at my house and I cook for them. I'm not a partier. I've been invited to those types of GNO and I pass, I have NO desire to get all dressed up for other guys (ever) especially if my guy isn’t by my side.Birdeehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12587791461051428059noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-40473139190948914042008-09-21T22:52:00.000-07:002008-09-21T22:52:00.000-07:00Hi Nikki, I just came across your blog for the fir...Hi Nikki, I just came across your blog for the first time tonight. OMG. We have A LOT in common. I live in the Bay Area. I have failed two IVFs and have never been PG (my husband has MF as well). The kicker: I have a non-DES t-shaped uterus also. I was told by my first RE and my first IVF RE that "it didn't look bad enough" and that they wouldn't recommend surgery and that I was a perfect IVF candidate. Ha! Two BFNs later we decided to go to to CCRM and Dr. Schoolcraft- he immediately recommended surgery (an operative hysteroscopy) after he took a look inside. He basically said to me that its the next logical thing to fix considering my two failed cycles already. He didn't use the word 'funky' but he said I was pretty tiny in there. Anyways, I got that done in May of this year and had the balloon in for a week and everything. I didn't go back until August to check it out. Between that time, we decided to say screw IVF and adopt and I'm very happy with our decision! However, my husband really wanted to go back to Dr. Schoolcraft for the post-op and to get closure. I waffled for a long while but finally went. I'll be honest when I say that I was secretly hoping that the surgery was a bust because I just KNEW that if I got good news, I would start thinking about IVF again. Well I got good news. Surgery was successful and he was really happy with the results. I think there is still a very mild indentation at the top but he didn't seem worried. After the hysteroscopy and U/S, he was actually giddy and said to us that it looks like a brand new uterus and gave us a 50/50 shot of IVF working. Well after much discussion and soul searching, we've decided to go through IVF one last time with him. Because if he can't get me PG, then I'm done. Mentally I'm already done but I know I will always 'wonder'. And given the amount my husband and I have gone through, I think this last cycle will be closure in a way. And I feel incredibly guilty about going through with it since that is a no-no with our adoption agency. Anyways, I'm sorry for the novel on your blog! I've only come across other ladies with a t-shaped uterus a few times but when I read your blog tonight, I just HAD to respond. Please feel free to email me: amy.raf at gmail dot com. I wish you much luck with your surgery and if you have any questions about it, I'll be happy to tell you my experience with it and offer any support. <BR/><BR/>Take care :)Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-79327054888932182622008-09-21T20:48:00.001-07:002008-09-21T20:48:00.001-07:00Rock star post, once again, Nikki. No surprise. ...Rock star post, once again, Nikki. No surprise. I knew there was more to you than IF, so have no fear, I just had no idea we had so much in common:<BR/>DH is best friend too. He can make me laugh until my stomach aches-- like I'm a kid.<BR/>I also like to cook, but I'm a bit of an introvert, so I'd rather entertain for a few than a lot (or just DH and me!).<BR/>I once thought that I was also suited for the corporate world.... <BR/>No girls night out stuff for me either. I cherish the relationships with the woman I have become friends with as an adult, but I have never been interested in a tequila drinking, golden boy stripping night on the town. Cheers to those who can handle it, but that's not my bag, baby.<BR/>Have a great night.The Vincentshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02655510450124094215noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-1675513491285967692008-09-21T20:48:00.000-07:002008-09-21T20:48:00.000-07:00Great post Nikki!!!! I love it!!! I have learned...Great post Nikki!!!! I love it!!! I have learned new things about you. A degree in biology! YAY for you. My degree was going to be in Microbiology... it will someday. I stopped when I got married b/c of expense and yada yada. I'll go back. I wanted to be a lab rat! I love being in the lab. I loved working with all that stuff. Thank you for sharing part of you outside of infertility. I knew there was lots to ya besides being infertile. There's lots to all of us. It just seems that we get consumed by infertility... whichs sucks. Thanks for sharing!!!Melaniehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06516136767660914945noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-73734063199627387132008-09-21T19:55:00.000-07:002008-09-21T19:55:00.000-07:00Repeat after me, "I am not my infertility!" Someti...Repeat after me, "I am not my infertility!" Sometimes, I need to remind myself of this. <BR/><BR/>Ya know, I was actually thinking about the very topic of this blog post yesterday...that because of the way in which I use my blog, I might come across as someone who is only made up of IF and nothing else. While I won't deny that it can be all-consuming at times, it is not who we are. I am so glad you brought this to light. And it was wonderful learning about the other 'parts' of you. Like you, I adore my animals and most importantly, Mr. S. We are pretty much the glued at the hip type, BFFs all the way. :)<BR/><BR/>By the way, I will be in town (as in San Jose) on Friday. If you're free and up for it, give me a holla!<BR/><BR/>redrivershel@gmail.comShelbyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06085283320884411888noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-70808563123623084762008-09-21T17:57:00.000-07:002008-09-21T17:57:00.000-07:00I absolutely, positively LOVED this post. About th...I absolutely, positively LOVED this post. About three months into my blog, I also realized that I was sort-of pigeonholing myself into being a snarky, bitter infertile. That might be a small part of me, but it's not all of me. It's not even most of me. I made an effort from them on out to let a little more of a bigger picture of myself spill out into the blog. Sometimes I have to make an effort to do it. <BR/><BR/>It seems like we have a lot in common. I also feel like I don't need anyone other than my hubby, and he spoils me rotten, too. Non-confrontational to the core, I also adapt to other people's views. In my mind I'm very opinionated, but it's rare that I make my opinions known (the negative ones) without first being asked for my input.JW Moxiehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16865232770753428076noreply@blogger.com