tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post991051961752289980..comments2021-11-12T00:39:32.400-08:00Comments on Our roller coaster ride through infertility and more: AngelversaryNikkihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15469466620967385694noreply@blogger.comBlogger22125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-34165995055506100322009-12-06T18:15:07.730-08:002009-12-06T18:15:07.730-08:00Nikki, I'm so sorry you feel this way. What a ...Nikki, I'm so sorry you feel this way. What a very hard day you had and a terrible anniversary to have to go through. A million ~hugs~ to you coming over the internet.nancyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04479202205264710056noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-55303282162814149402009-12-05T18:46:15.764-08:002009-12-05T18:46:15.764-08:00thinking of you ((HUGS))thinking of you ((HUGS))Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-74634661126875923582009-12-03T17:03:31.254-08:002009-12-03T17:03:31.254-08:00I've been thinking of you lately, and was so s...I've been thinking of you lately, and was so sad to read this post when I came to your blog today. I'm so sorry for everything you continue to go through. You must feel so alone and so angry and so defeated. It is NOT FAIR. And so heartwrenching I can't even beleive it. But you have not lost Nikki, not yet, because even though you think you have lost all hope, I know deep down you will find it again. You will dig even deeper, like you always do, because you are honestly one of the strongest people I know. And I've never even met you. Yet, you are an inspiration of strength and courage and yes, hope. I will never give up hope for a happy ending for you. I know it is waiting for you. I know it.Lisahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07089321888189715242noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-59240696740944439582009-12-02T17:28:24.987-08:002009-12-02T17:28:24.987-08:00Nikki, I am always amazed at your profound strengt...Nikki, I am always amazed at your profound strength and beauty.<br /><br />I'm sorry you're having to write this entry about such a painful event and I'm sorry the ability to hope makes the moment even more heartwrenching.<br /><br />Thinking of you...Ramblerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06095698168514644000noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-51672509202648572122009-12-01T10:26:38.773-08:002009-12-01T10:26:38.773-08:00Oh Nikki. All of this is just so cosmically unfai...Oh Nikki. All of this is just so cosmically unfair.<br /><br />I feel so helpless to do anything to make this better for you. Anniversaries are a time of remembrance, and I am remembering the life of your dear baby along side you.<br /><br />The fact that you are still standing, still pushing forward 2 years later is a testament of your strength. I'm sure that your angel baby is urging you along from Heaven.<br /><br />I love you, Nikki!Meg.https://www.blogger.com/profile/00362604475161394470noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-72139094492646044652009-11-30T21:35:39.984-08:002009-11-30T21:35:39.984-08:00Nikki - I'm so sorry.Nikki - I'm so sorry.Margarethttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03775375712213392196noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-64220593339088571652009-11-30T16:06:19.942-08:002009-11-30T16:06:19.942-08:00I'm so sorry that you had go through that, i w...I'm so sorry that you had go through that, i wish there is something I could do to make it better, i'm always here for you, call me anytime if you need to talk, it's the least i could do....My prayers and thoughts are with you. <br /><br />After all these sufferings, there's got to be a happy ending.I'm very hopeful to hear good news from you soon. <br />Take care.Lavanyahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07358309679753805506noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-73517567202752630272009-11-30T14:47:59.569-08:002009-11-30T14:47:59.569-08:00Nikki, I am so sorry. So very sorry. It is a very,...Nikki, I am so sorry. So very sorry. It is a very, very painful experience you are describing. I send you a lot of love, support, and kindness and I hope I can be there when you need it most.banditgirlhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14350894985718085970noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-29752263527782453782009-11-29T15:39:57.703-08:002009-11-29T15:39:57.703-08:00I am so sorry, Nikki. I don't know what if fe...I am so sorry, Nikki. I don't know what if feels like to lose a pregnancy, but I know that pain of losing the IF battle at that "magical" clinic. It's a hard place to come to and I find myself in and out of this ugly funk to misguided hopeful place on such a regular basis. I wish I had the answer for you...for all of us in this transitional place.Lost in Spacehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07027117135940864685noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-49337171272951164762009-11-29T09:13:56.329-08:002009-11-29T09:13:56.329-08:00My dear, I wish there was anything I could say tha...My dear, I wish there was anything I could say that would make a real difference, but I know it's all pretty basic - time will heal, you'll find you're way, etc. <br /><br />I guess what all of that really means is that what you need to fill this emptiness is in the future, and you just have to wait to catch up with it, whatever it is. I don't think time itself heals much of anything, but it brings you to the events that do heal. So, my hope for you is that time speeds your happiness to you. <br /><br />Nothing will ever make you forget that day in the u/s room, but someday you will be able to look back with a quiet sadness instead of the kind of anguish that you are left with now. I hope that day finds you soon, sweet Nikki.Lorrainehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04180034761243431694noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-25637167419654207152009-11-29T02:48:36.008-08:002009-11-29T02:48:36.008-08:00I am so very sorry for your loss. You are in my t...I am so very sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts.Illanarehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05203774916178621215noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-59549063336113953712009-11-28T22:13:34.878-08:002009-11-28T22:13:34.878-08:00Nikki, my heart hurts for you. This post brought t...Nikki, my heart hurts for you. This post brought tears to my eyes, thank you for your honesty.<br /><br />I'm sorry you've experienced so much pain... Please know I'm thinking of you, and here if you ever need to talk.<br /><br />Hugs.Melissa Ghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04150534738341942742noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-50619421256493313112009-11-28T21:45:07.092-08:002009-11-28T21:45:07.092-08:00I have Danny now, but the 'baby' I lost is...I have Danny now, but the 'baby' I lost is still mourned for...Chttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11395529198459662630noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-66416677289067793272009-11-28T21:34:06.959-08:002009-11-28T21:34:06.959-08:00Your pain is felt by many...N, You are a beautiful...Your pain is felt by many...N, You are a beautiful person, inside and out...Chttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11395529198459662630noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-63495547334152379462009-11-28T21:20:59.355-08:002009-11-28T21:20:59.355-08:00My heart goes out to you. {{{Hugs}}}My heart goes out to you. {{{Hugs}}}Mayahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14538524319905376941noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-18161614822869236592009-11-28T21:06:27.007-08:002009-11-28T21:06:27.007-08:00I feel like you have written a page from my life h...I feel like you have written a page from my life here. My heart breaks for you. I know your pain. I just noticed that you live in the bay area too. If you ever want to get together for coffee or tea or something, email me: eileenburnsjin@yahoo.com. It's always nice to meet people who can relate to what we have been through.Eileenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07222083483218670959noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-91971009083261153632009-11-28T19:56:57.410-08:002009-11-28T19:56:57.410-08:00Nikki, reading about this painful anniversary for ...Nikki, reading about this painful anniversary for you makes me so sad. I'm so sorry you and your DH had to experience any kind of heartache like this. My heart also hurts for you. <br /><br />Please know you are in my thoughts. <br /><br />Like Jill M., I am always hopeful to hear great news for you soon.<br /><br />Much love.Lisahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17462141149078143157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-13900578474754742482009-11-28T17:31:28.512-08:002009-11-28T17:31:28.512-08:00Heartwrenching :( I totally agree that time only d...Heartwrenching :( I totally agree that time only dulls pain. I am SOO sorry for your loss.Nicolehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11122362716599059627noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-21581950034153219252009-11-28T17:10:54.369-08:002009-11-28T17:10:54.369-08:00Oh, my friend, I am so deeply sorry for how your j...Oh, my friend, I am so deeply sorry for how your journey has unfolded. I agree that time simply dulls the ache but will never, ever take the pain away. I remember my similar experience as if it were yesterday and no amount of good fortune will take away the fact that that was simply the most painful experience of my life. If there were a rhyme or reason to any of this, if life were a pure karma equation, you would not have had to endure any of this. Also thinking of you and hoping for the best in the future.Shelbyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06085283320884411888noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-63353524890129364682009-11-28T15:37:21.637-08:002009-11-28T15:37:21.637-08:00Well, I never made it that far, but I do know this...Well, I never made it that far, but I do know this pain of putting yourself through EVERYTHING, and still feeling no closer than years ago when you started. And it hurts, worse than anything I've ever felt before. I wish I had a way to comfort you, but I don't, being in that non-comforting place myself. But I'll support you in whatever you decide to do next--whenever it is.lastchanceivfhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14139576318784337837noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-36402870592459850182009-11-28T15:19:29.336-08:002009-11-28T15:19:29.336-08:00I have no words. I'm just so sorry. I unders...I have no words. I'm just so sorry. I understand your words and it hurts to read them. I'm so sorry you had to live them. ((Hugs))Bluebirdhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05026618678540051581noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6510189936790160175.post-92147390141281530162009-11-28T14:33:57.752-08:002009-11-28T14:33:57.752-08:00Oh man, what a tearful read. I always knew a m/c w...Oh man, what a tearful read. I always knew a m/c was painful, but it is so much more amplified now that I can imagine the pain of someone saying there's no heartbeat. I'm so sorry you had to hear those painful words and I wish there was something I could do to fix it all. My heart hurts for you. Always thinking of you and hopeful to hear great news soon. Love ya!Jill M.https://www.blogger.com/profile/03527626839439456919noreply@blogger.com