Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Know you're not alone.... I'm gonna make this place your home

The first time I heard Philip Phillips sing this song was on the radio a while ago. I remember I was driving home from work when this song came on, and as I listened to the words, it made me cry. Tears clouded my vision and I blinked them away to be able to see the road ahead.
The song was obviously not written with me in mind, and probably had nothing to do with my situation, but it spoke volumes to me. You see, we had just signed up for domestic adoption, and the lines "Know you're not alone, I'm gonna make this place your home" resonated very deeply with me. Since then, till now - this song became our "Adoption Song".

Fast forward a few months later.... and he's here! In a whirlwind of emails, texts, calls, trips and visits, we heard from a birth mother, met her, and within 2 months of the first contact, he was already ours!

Introducing Rowan! He is 4 weeks old today, and is an absolute joy. Our road to parenthood was long and rocky, but he is so worth it. The sweet boy has made all our dreams come true and DH and I couldn't be happier.

We are an Indian couple and we have a Caucasian white, grey eyed, blond haired little one. In the last 4 weeks, we've already had some interesting conversations with strangers who look at us and then look at him and look confused. But we're loving it. Proudly embracing our differences and working towards solidifying our similarities! 

I know I haven't posted anything here in a long long time, and I don't know if anyone is still interested, but I thought I should post an update, just in case. I'm not going to write here in this blog any more. I may start a blog about my adoption story and our journey with him, and once I do, I can share it with anyone who wants to stay in touch.

Thank you all for being there when I was at my lowest and for always being supportive and encouraging. Life takes us all on different journeys and I guess eventually we all find resolution - one way or the other.


Lisa said...

Oh Nikki!!!!!

I am so thrilled for you and your husband. What an amazing end to such a painful and heartbreaking journey. I am so happy for you. ENJOY EVERY MOMENT. You deserve to soak it all in and make the most of all that you thought you'd never experience. xoxoxoxooxxo

Charlotte said...

Nikki, I am so so so happy for you and happy to read this update! Thanks so much for coming back here and sharing this, I have thought of you often! Your little boy is absolutely beautiful! Please keep me in the loop if you do start another blog. My email is

Lots of love,

MyTwoLines said...

Nikki this is truly amazing news!!
He is gorgeous and I know you are loving every minute!

Welcome to the world of transracial adoption ;)

Keep us posted!!

Anonymous said...

Wow Wow Wow Wow
Congratulations to one of the most beautiful ladies I ever met online.
You deserve this sweet moment so much.
You will make an amazing mother too.
I am THRILLED for you!!!
Caroline x

MyTwoLines said...

OK I totally left a comment via my Iphone but it never made it..blah!

So here goes again:
I am beyond thrilled for you guys! It is such exciting news and he is certainly a handsome little guy :)

Welcome to the world of transracial parenting :) I know you guys are going to have a blast!

Lost in Space said...

Of course I already stalk you in other places, but have to say again how happy and thrilled I am for you!! And, of course, I am excited to see you throw up a blog post again. I'm just trying to get back into blogging myself. Welcome back and welcome to the world again, little Rowan!! xoxo

Anonymous said...

Such Wonderful News!!!
So happy for all of you!
Much love!

Rachael said...

Congratulations!!! He is adorable!

C said...

:) you know how I feel about Rowan. :) muaahws to him

Sarang said...

Oh, Monkey's to long, long-awaited not endings...but BEGINNINGS. Love that you have made your home for Rowen.

I would love if you started an adoption blog...I'm going to BlogHer in Chicago tomorrow (really!)...and will be meeting adoption bloggers (yes, really!). My blogosphere hiatus seems to be wearing off, too. Much XOXO! See you in a week!

I Believe in Miracles said...

What?!?! Oh this is so so so so so exciting!! CONGRATULATIONS!! I remember when you stopped updating and meant to email you to see how you were doing lately. I thought of you recently as I was cooking chicken curry...

Congratulations on your son! I'm so happy for you both. xoxoxo

Rambler said...

Oh Nikki, I am so so happy for you. And I LOVE the name Rowan for such a sweet, adorable bundle of joy. Hearty congratulations, I hope the ride is fun and you've had an amazing summer.

Anonymous said...

Rowan - You are one lucky little boy!
Nikki..for 4 years I have checked your blog regularly hoping for an update. Am glad I did not give up!

Nobody else deserves better!

Empty Hug (no more)

Anonymous said...

Congratulations ! I remember you from WebMD days ...stumbled upon your blog today ,I am so thrilled for you ...your baby is gorgeous :)