Monday, April 13, 2009

Back in action

I’m back in CA, back in circulation, and back to reality. Thank you to everyone for your thoughts and prayers for my uncle and his family. I know they needed all the prayers they could get.

I’m glad I went and stayed with them last week, and I hope my visit helped them, even a little. My uncle had to have a tracheostomy, and has now been fitted with a tube through his throat through which he will breathe. They have also put a tube into his tummy through which he will be fed. As of now, he will be dependent on the breathing and feeding tubes for as long as he lives, unless some miracle happens and he gets strong enough to breathe and eat on his own.

It was all very emotionally draining to experience, and if it was emotional for me, I cannot even imagine how my aunt and my cousin must feel. And of course how my uncle must feel going through all this. He has been sick for the last 9 years now, and it’s always been one episode after the other, with no real diagnosis. They’ve gone through an inordinate amount in their lives, and guess what? Their struggles started with IF too! I will write about them in detail in a separate post because the perspective I have gained last week deserves its own blog post.

It was DH’s birthday last Tuesday, and I was not here, and it tore me apart to not be able to be with him that day. But we have wonderful friends, and I organized with some of them to take him out to dinner and make sure he had a nice day. The dinner was planned as a surprise for DH, and it worked pretty well!

The last couple of weeks have just zipped past! Why is it that time goes by SO SLOWLY when we’re on a treatment cycle – like the painfully long and slow days during the 2ww or during lining prep for FET, and just completely zips past otherwise? I have hardly had time to sit and think about IF, plan my next steps or anything!

In other news, my job hunt went way better than I anticipated. I got a couple of offers, and I accepted one of them, and I actually just started a new job today! I’m excited to be back in the game, and I’m proud that things moved so quickly once I had decided to look. I was so scared of facing an interview, and it so ended up that I got an offer for every interview I went for, and I did manage to do good interviews without being broken down by my IF experiences of the last year. So, as of today, I’m employed!


Caroline said...

I am sorry to hear about your Uncle's situation. It sounds like a very draining time, although I am sure that the family was very thankful to have your support.

I am also really pleased to hear about your new job! It must be a good boost to your self esteem to have been offered every single job you interviewed for (particularly in this tough economic climate!). Congratulations!

Caroline x

Shelby said...

I can only imagine what your Uncle's family is going through, but I'm so glad you were able to be there. And I'm so happy to hear about your new job. This is great and I'm sure a huge financial relief. Congrats!

Linda said...

I am so sorry to hear about your Uncle. I hope and pray that a miracle happens for him. How difficult it must be on him and his family.

Oh and Congratulations on your new job! :)

Anonymous said...

I really sorry to hear about your Uncle. I am thinking about you and your family. I also wanted to say how super impressed about all the job offers! YAY! Great news! Would love to hear more about your new snoop jobbie job.

Sue said...

I'm sorry about your uncle. It does sound draining but it was great of you to travel and be with him and your family for a while.

Congrats on the new job!I am impressed that you got so many offers (mostly because of the crappy economy, not your interview skills).

Misty Dawn said...

Sorry to hear about your uncle.


Congrats on the new job though, how exciting!

JJ said...

Nikki, so sorry about your uncle's struggles. You're a wonderful niece and they're very lucky to have you. I hope he's able to gain in strength again.

Congrats on your job!!! Awesome that you got a job so fast in this economy! I hope your first week goes really well.

DAVs said...

Hey, super congrats on the job! That is awesome, I hope everything goes well!

Chhandita said...

It must be tough for your uncle's family, but good taht you could spend some time with them..

Welcome back...u were missed...great news about the new job...congratulations....

Anonymous said...

still sending lots of positive thoughts to your family.... and YEA for a new job! that is so awesome. you're officially gainfully employed :)

I Believe in Miracles said...

Nikki - Just getting caught up on a bunch of posts.

A - I'm so sorry to hear about your uncle.
B - Praises for DH being unhurt in the accident.
C - Praises and congrats on your job!

YEAH! I'm hopin' for you.


Anonymous said...

Glad to have you back!

I'm sorry about your uncle, it sounds really hard, I'm sure he loved having you there.

Congrats on the job too, way to go!

You sound a lot happier and more positive.


momsoon said...

sorry it has taken a while for me to catch up on your news...i am glad you could be there for your uncle and i am sure that that was much appreciated...i am sending a prayer out to you and your family.

Big congrats on the good news on the job front!! I hope all goes well and can't wait to hear an update!!!!
Thanks for all your support, much needed and appreciated...

Anonymous said...

congrats on the job, that is great!

I will send positive, healing thoughts your uncle's way ((HUGS))

banditgirl said...

What an incredible gift it must have been to have you there with your uncle and his family.

On another note: You rock, lady! What a success!

Anonymous said...

Congrats on your job. Having something else to focus on while going through the pain that is IF helps.... it helps a lot!
I am sorry to hear about your uncle. Hope he gets the strength to recover as the days pass.

Lorraine said...

Wow! It must be so affirming to be snapped up by a new company.

Sorry your good news comes mixed with the sadness about your uncle - I promise to appreciate my health and not take it for granted so much. IF makes me hate my body's treachery, but the truth is I'm otherwise doing fairly well. Thanks for reminding me what's important.

Jill M. said...

Welcome back! Sorry to hear about your uncle. That was very sweet of you to help out and I'm sure they appreciated it tremendously.

Happy Bday to your dh!

Congratulations on the job, wahoo! What kind of work do you do?

Clio said...

great news on your employment! how cool that you got offers for every interview you went! wow! nice way to be back in the game :)
sorry to hear about your uncle.
and also curious as to your insights relating to IF while you were there.
welcome back!

Anonymous said...

Dear Nikki and DH,
I was busy traveling and I must say that is is very heartening to read very healthy and positive changes in your life and state of mind.

Congratulations on many levels..

One,your shift in perspective to a higher plane of thought, which in itself signifies a healing process and adds depth and appreciation to the quality of live that we do live.

Second, of course the financial security, which provides a lot of confidence in oneself,for undertaking the hard and painful emotional roller coaster of IF.

Third, I must say DH is a wonderful spouse as you are to him. Although belated, many happy returns of this day.

I feel very confident and wish you both success in the near future and hope you do achieve your goal.



Sarang said...

Sending continued thoughts for peace to your family. You truly are a wonderful niece.

BIG congrats on the jobby job job!

MamaSoon said...

Sorry I am so late to the party but Congrats on the new job! Such great news!

However, i am sad to hear of your uncle's situation.