Saturday, April 4, 2009

Fly By Updates

Its amazing how, when IF isn't taking over your life, LIFE takes over your life! I've been busy in the last couple of weeks, focussing primarily on the job hunt. It's been a relief to just be ME. I'm enjoying being ME and not infertile me. (No, I didn't suddenly turn fertile, but I'm just not focussing on IF for the time being)

It's like there is this part of my brain that I somehow switched off - no IF thoughts, no IF conversations, no IF depression, and it feels like a weight has lifted from my soul! Instead, I'm wearing my MBA hat - sending resumes, attending interviews, negotiating offers etc. And it's a different level of energy that flows in your veins when you're not thinking IF! 

I was busy with my job hunt, and suddenly I have another diversion. A family situation this time. I have an uncle who lives in NH (this is my mom's brother). My uncle has been sick off and on for the last few years. A few days ago, he got taken very ill again, and got admitted to the ICU with a collapsed lung. In a couple of days, his other lung collapsed too. He's been on the ventilator for a few days now, and his lungs aren't cooperating well at all. The doctors are planning to do a tracheotomy on him (put a tube through his throat so he can breathe), and put a food tube too. This procedure is likely to happen on Monday or Tuesday.

I am taking the red eye out to the east coast tonight to spend some time with my aunt, and to visit my uncle. They have a daughter, who is in college. She is supposed to graduate next month, and right now, is torn between her thesis and final college stuff, and having to attend to her dad in the hospital. I'm just going there to be with them, in case anyone needs any help, and to give them company, if anyone needs to vent or a shoulder to cry on. 

I may not have a lot of internet time while I am there, but I will try and keep up with all of you. If I am not able to comment, please forgive me. And please send up some thoughts and prayers for my uncle so he can come through this new challenge in his life. 

I will update you all when I return - perhaps later in the week. 


Darya said...

I hope everything goes well with your uncle. You are a great niece. (((HUGS)))

Lorraine said...

So glad you found your ME again! Infertility can just take over every aspect of our life, and it's true that there is a whole world out there that isn't about whether you are reproducing or not - enjoy it!

Lots of healing thoughts for your uncle, too.

Caroline said...

Hi Nikki,

I'm sorry to hear about your uncle. I will be keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers.

I am so pleased to hear that your job hunting has been productive. However, I am jealous that you have discovered "life beyond IF." Can we all have some of that please? (he he he).

Thinking of you.


Anonymous said...

yuck, Nikki! so sorry to hear this. travel safely. thinking lots about you and your family!

elephantscanremember said...

I hope and pray that God will give you all comfort during this time. (Hugs) to you all.

Sky said...

I find it particularly nice when a couple of days has gone by that I've been so busy and involved with other things that I've actually forgotten about the IVF stuff.

Enjoy it!

Anonymous said...

Have a safe trip to NH, what area are you headed to (I am orginally from NH)?

I will keep you and your family close.

I am happy that you are living LIFE, it is so refreshing.

Be safe.

Dora said...

You're a great niece, Nikki. I'm sure it'll mean so much to them.

Anonymous said...

I am sorry to hear about your uncle. Sending positive thoughts and prayers over to him.
And yeah... the non-IF life is pretty good isn't it? It just occupies you and its like discovering a whole new YOU. I am happy for you.

Anonymous said...

Sending lots of best wishes and prayer for your uncle. I hope his hospital stay is short and he starts getting better soon.
Have a safe trip!

Jill M. said...

Glad to hear you're enjoying some "you" time! I'm sorry to hear about your uncle, that is very sweet of you to help out. Enjoy the break away from the daily trials of IF.

Lauren said...

I'll be thinking of you all. (((((HUGS))))

Anonymous said...

Have a safe trip - if you get laid over in Pittsburgh, email me.


Lavanya said...

Hope your uncle will be ok soon, I'll keep him and ur family in my prayers. Take Care. Have a safe trip.

banditgirl said...

Nikki, sending you and your uncle and his family many healing thoughts! How great you can spend some time with them, I am sure it means a lot to them.

And I am very, very excited to feel your IF-free, business-hat energy! What a successful, talented, kickass woman you are for going out there and focusing on other things! Maybe there are some advantages for the need to find a job--it allows one to just focus on it so hard that other things (if only temporarily) fade away in the background!

JJ said...

So sorry to hear about your uncle and hope your time on the East Coast goes well.

How great that you're getting all this interest from employers, it gives you a real boost, doesn't it?

Sarang said...

I am praying for your uncle and family. My thoughts are with you.

I am so glad this IF break is a breath of fresh air to you!

Clio said...

Nikki, I concur with everything you said about letting IF take a backseat for a while and LIFE taking over. It feels good!
sorry about your uncle. How difficult it must be for their daughter to have that happen as she finishes her college requirements... I can't imagine. It's wonderful of you to go to them and offer help. I bet they'll really appreciate it. Blessings to you and your uncle's family.

Elle Charlie said...

Hope things are going okay - glad you were able to be there for them - I'm sure they appreciate it. {Hugs}

bunny said...

thinking of you and your family. i am sure they really appreciate your support.

so glad to hear that you are rediscovering the non-IF parts of your life. it can be (usually is?) so all consuming that you do lose so many things...mind, body and soul

Erica said...

Thinking of you and your family right now. I hope your uncle is going to be okay.

And thanks for posting that adorable youtube video - super cute!