Monday, December 22, 2008

9 days to go

We are scheduled to leave for Denver in 9 days, on 12/31. That is, provided all goes on schedule, and my body behaves itself. I have my baseline u/s and bloodwork scheduled for this Friday. So far (knock on wood), I've never had an issue with cysts or anything, and I'm hoping no surprises get sprung on me this time.

Assuming all goes well, I start stims on Saturday. So starting Saturday, I will be moving to 3 shots per day, as opposed to the one per day I'm on right now. So far, Lupron has not turned me into a lunatic. (DH may very promptly disagree here - yes, I've snapped at him for no apparent reason a couple of times recently - but hey, you take all these meds and shots, and then let's see!)

 The Dexamethasone induced insomnia seems to be adjusting as well. I guess my sleep is way too precious and overpowering for a tiny pill to be able to ward off for too long! I've been sleeping better for the last couple of days, compared to when I started the medicine last week.

Overall, I'm feeling calm. Very calm. It's strange, but I'm always very calm during my treatment cycles. I'm not feeling any "what if" panic attacks coming on. I'm not feeling "Yippeee - this is going to work and I know it!!". I'm just feeling "still" and calm.

I don't know the outcome of this IVF. I don't know what frame of mind I will be in, one month from now, 2 months from now, 1 year from now. I do know that I'm doing the best that I can, given the circumstances.

I have a little external panic situation going on though. I am FREAKING out at the thought of the weather in Denver! See, I'm a sorry combination of being an owner of a "It never snows in the Bay Area, CA" wardrobe, and "I'm from the tropical heat of India and I cannot IMAGINE temperatures like those!!"

We don't have any experience with scraping snow off our cars, nor do we have experience with driving in the snow. To make sure we weren't signing up for a sure shot disastrous trip (what with a rental car and everything), we checked if the hotel we're at has a shuttle service. Thank goodness they do! And thank goodness CCRM is as popular as it is, because the concierge on the phone even told us "Just tell us the timings of your appointments, and we will make sure the shuttle is available!" Sweet!!

My "to-do before leaving for Denver" and "to-do for Denver" lists are getting ready, and items getting crossed off already. The days are rolling by, and time draws near. 


Clio said...

wow, so much going on... so many expectations. i'm going to be following you close to see how your journey goes.
it's great that the hotel has a shuttle, what an added peace of mind!
Get a good coat, nice layers, and thick soled shoes in your suitcase. No kidding, the thicker the soles, the less cold your feet get. (take it from a Brazilian surviving the midwest for over 7 years).

Lorraine said...

I agree with Clio - the shoes are the most important thing. Waterproof, if possible! I spent my first school year in Rhode Island wearing my Texas shoes - very bad idea! But maybe you'll be whisked from one covered area to another, and won't need to actually walk in the slush...

I hope this is an amazing New Year for you! All the best wishes in the world for 2009!

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Chhandita said...

I see you have go another award **clap**clap** i wish I had your calmness right now. But hey hope some of your spirit will rub off on me too :) bless ya

margelina said...

Calm is good...calm is very good! Glad you are sleeping better again! That's great that the hotel has awesome shuttle service, one less thing to worry about.
p.s. I love the bay area...I wish I could live there!

Heavy heart said...

You are one phenomenal woman! Calm does going away for Christmas but am still going to check on you everyday somehow..very much want to be with you every step of the way!

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Lisa said...

I am so glad you are sleeping better - that usually makes all the difference for me. Hopefully the weather will cooperate! I am really excited for you.

April said...

you'll be great. denver will be wonderful. i am so excited for you!!!! what a great way to bring in the new year. can't wait to hear how things go!