Saturday, November 22, 2008

Think about it....

Every couple that is TTC imagines how it would be to get pregnant. They imagine the pregnancy, the glow, the swelling belly, waddling stride, the ultrasounds, the oohing and aahing of every milestone. Every couple hopes for a smooth, uneventful pregnancy, with no "alarm" situations. 

Heh! I try to put myself in that place. You know - positive thinking and all that. Here's what goes on it my head:

If I do get pregnant, and do reach the stage where I get released from my RE to a regular doctor, I'd probably have to go to a perinatologist (a high risk pregnancy OB). Why? There are several reasons why a pregnancy may be considered high risk. Some that come to mind to me are:

1) Previous miscarriage? Check.
2) Previous ectopic? Check.
3) Advanced Maternal Age? Check.
4) Uterine Anomaly? Check.
5) IVF with PGD? Check. 
6) High BP? Check. 

I wonder if one perinatologist will be sufficient for me! These are things that I KNOW are on my list. I hope this is where my list ends, and I hope it doesn't grow longer!! 

Oh well - que sera sera. Whatever will be will be. 


Lisa said...

Totally. I fantasize about it all the time! The glowing pregnant belly and smooth pregnancy. But lord knows, so far, it's been anything but smooth so I'm not expecting an easy 9 months if I ever get so lucky. But who cares, as long as there is a baby at the end of it, I can put up with anything. Those who have gone through IVF already have.

Lisa said...

I dream about it frequently! I hope that you will have to face those decisions soon!

Anonymous said...

For some reason, I never seem to catch myself dream about that stuff. All I can picture is a baby... our baby at the end of all this crap. Maybe because I have never ever once seen the two lines on a HPT. Never once had I had even a glimmer of possibility that this is it. Or Maybe I am just broken! Yeah... I am sure that is it.
Anyways, you summed it up right by saying, whatever will be will be. Our turns will come! :)

April said...

as long as you are at a big medical center you will have a large group of docs. ;)

i'm never able to think of what the future will be. i cannot picture being a parent. i know that i want to do it. i know that i want to be pregnant. i know i want all that you talked about....i just can't picture it. i have always been that way. when i knew that i was going to graduate from college i couldn't picture or imagine what life would be like once i was not in school. when i got engaged i knew that i would marry B, but I couldn't even imagine what things would be like. Weird, huh?

If your list grows longs: who cares. What's one more doc when you are already working with so many? (isn't that the way you think about spending money now? what's one more thousand when we are already spending 20K?). :(

Nikki said...

You know April - I can't either. That's why it freaks me out that when I make myself think of pregnancy, all I can think about is high risk stuff - like that red light flashing outside a surgery room!!

And yeah - what's more money when so much has been spent? LOL! I even said that about my uterus surgery the other day to someone - "Who cares about one more surgery after all that I've been through - as long as it fixes the problem!"

nancy said...

The "bright side" of high risk is you'll get to see the baby a lot!

Shelby said...

I am really hoping that in just a handful of months, you will be seeing that perinatologist! And then it'll go so smoothly, everyone will wonder why you were sent to them in the first place. That is my wish for you!

Lorraine said...

I think you have already encountered a wide range of the crummy stuff and now you should be allowed to just sail through without worries. That's just my professional opinion.

I do always wonder if it gets easier as long as things progress nicely... maybe by the end you'll be waddling and complaining like any other preggo lady?