Wednesday, March 4, 2009


Award # 1

Sue, Bunny and Margelina nominated me for the Honest Scrap Award and I think I must be the last person in the blog world to come around to writing the honest scraps. EVERYONE has done it recently! :-) 

So here goes:

The Rules: 
1) Choose a minimum of 7 blogs that you find brilliant in content or design. 
2) Show the 7 winners names and links on your blog, and leave a comment informing them that they were prized with “Honest Scrap.” Well, there’s no prize, but they can keep the nifty icon. 
3) List at least 10 honest things about yourself.

10 honest things about myself:

1) Nikki is not my real name. My real name is a Sanskrit word which means "the moon". It's a short name, and thankfully doesn't get very twisted in America!

2) My DH spoils me. Rotten. I admit - I am completely spoilt. And I love it! :-)

3) DH and I love watching Food Network and HGTV. We can watch these channels for hours!

4) All of my education has been in Catholic institutions. I've never been in a public education system. Catholic School, Catholic college, and even my MBA in a missionary institute!

5) My undergrad is in Biology. I had a blast at college! By far the best days of my life. Everything was so simple and easy then - no stress, nothing to worry about. Simple pleasures and so much fun!

6) DH and I came to the US in 1999, and now, when I look back, I am SO grateful I live here! If I had to deal with IF, this is the best place to do it. I have access to the best doctors, RE, resources, and I have all the privacy in the world to do my treatments. Back home, the neighbors, the neighbor's aunt, the guy across the street and his grandma - EVERYONE would be interested in what's going on.

7) I started writing my blog last year, and today, I am so glad I did. The support I get from the blogosphere is enough to get me through my toughest challenges. Through my blog I met Shelby, and she introduced me to a group of fantastic ladies, all of who are dealing with IF. This group now meets up once every few weeks, and these meetings keep me sane. We talk, share each others' progress, laugh, eat, drink (sometimes!!) and have a great time. I speak for myself - I am so grateful for these ladies, and I'm eternally thankful to Shelby for having introduced me!

8) IF has ruined my body image, and my self esteem. I quit my job in Feb last year, and now that I am thinking of getting back into the job market, I'm terrified just thinking about interviews. I can only imagine myself breaking down into tears if asked "What have you done since Feb 2008"? I have no idea how to repair my broken self esteem.

9) I know that I am mentally at the end of my rope as far as TTC is concerned. Once we are done with these 4 blastocysts - whether or not they take us to success, I'm done. I can't do this any more. I'm tired.

10) I am very scared of growing old childless.

I am not going to list blogs that I want to nominate, because, like I said, I think everyone has recently done a post on their honest scraps! If you haven't, please consider yourself nominated!!

Award # 2

Lisa nominated me for the Sisterhood Award - thank you so much Lisa! You are all my sisters, and I don't know what I would do without you ladies! 

The rules for accepting the award are as follows:
Put the logo on your blog or post.
Nominate at least 10 blogs with great attitude and/or gratitude.
Be sure to link to your nominees in your post.
Let your nominees know they have received the award by leaving them a comment on their blog.
Be sure to link this post to the person who nominated you for the award.

I nominate:
4) Davs
5) Sue
7) Clio
10) JJ

(I know I was supposed to nominate 10 people, but I went ahead and nominated more!)


JJ said...

Hey, Nikki, loved reading your honesty post and learning more about you. You're at least the penultimate to do this, b/c I still haven't done mine. Heeheee, I'm gearing up for it. And thank you for the award!

Good luck for tomorrow!!!! I really hope this one does the trick and you'll be off to Denver soon.

Anonymous said...

Just wanted you to know I am thinking about you. Good luck tomorrow. Praying for a thick lining.

Chhandita said...

Hey thanks for making room for me (even if that meant extending the list)!!! I was feeling pretty left out without a single award... ;) and I havent done the Honest scrap thingy...

am glad u r in the US is a challenge here specially if you are dealing IF...

BTW: Mallik is going to Tirupati in Friday, and I dont know why but I told him to put some money in the Hundi in your name...I hope you dont mind...

Chhandita said...

Hey, I definitely will take the money from you. I know it has to come from you :) I havent asked mallik to put in a specific amount, so will let you know how much he put in after he comes back :)

and yeah, I did help her run away. I was (still am i guess) pretty wild. lol

Caroline said...

Hi Nikki,
Thanks for nominating me for a sisterhood award. I am so touched. I also loved reading your honesty post and discovering more about you.
I am thankful to have you as my cyber friend. I think of you as an older IF sister - wiser than me, smarter than me, caring, and always there to offer advice and support when it is needed. You have made a big difference to my difficult IF journey. Thanks for being you!

Lisa said...

Nikki - I really related to your posts - especially about the self esteem...I can barely fit into my work clothes anymore - even my fat work clothes..

Good luck with the lining - thinking of you.

DAVs said...

Awww, thanks for the award. You're so sweet.
I like reading the honest scrap ones...I am so sorry you're feeling low in the self-esteem department. IF is so debilitating sometimes, and I don't think people who haven't lived through it can get it.
I hope the lining looks bueno today!

momsoon said...

Thinking of you and your lining today- sister!!!! Thanks for the award- I will post later when i have time to ramble...
Prayers sent AND fingers, toes, eyes crossed for you todayxoxox

Clio said...

Hey Nikki, thanks for the sisterhood award. :)
I loved reading the 10 honest things about you. It's so true that this IF stuff ruins, absolutely ruins our self-confidence. I've been feeling like a walking failure lately and a lot of issues of low self esteem have come up because of it, of course. But there should be hope for us gals out there. Counseling maybe? I've been trying that, actually. Some books that help with self image and empowering ourselves. There are great ones by an author I love called SARK. They are fun and colorful, and encourage us to be juicy wild women. I guess we mostly forget this side of ourselves during all these treatments. We concentrate so much on our body parts and functioning that we forget about our brave women spirits. Visit Amazon or whatever and look her up. See if her style speaks to you. :)
I'm also foreign. And I'm algo glad to be in the US at this time dealing with being reproductively challenged...

Anonymous said...

Thank you Nikki for nominating me, I am so honored. I really enjoyed reading your scraps, I learned so much about you. Thank you for sharing. I hope all is well, I have been thinking about you.

Sarang said...

So, so glad to know you, too, "Moon"/Nikki!