Friday, March 13, 2009

Hysteroscopy scheduled

Drug free – yay, I’m drug free!! So THIS is what “normal” feels like! I’d almost forgotten what it’s like to not have to take ANY drugs at all! (OK – but for my BP meds)

I have even stopped my pre-natals and folic acid for now. I took permission from the nurse of course, and I told her I really wanted to live a few days without having to take anything TTC related.

And I also have some updates on our next steps. On Wednesday, after calling the cycle off, DH and I spoke. We talked about how soon we want to move on with hysteroscopy and regrouping with the doctors etc. And we decided that we would do the hysteroscopy and regroup now, fresh off of the lining issue, and based on the findings of the hysteroscopy, we will decide when and how we want to proceed further.

So yesterday I emailed the nurse asking her if I needed to wait for AF to schedule the hysteroscopy. Considering my lining is so pathetically thin anyway, it didn’t make sense to me to wait to schedule it in the first half of my next cycle (Hysteroscopies are scheduled between CD5 and CD11 so that the uterine lining is not too thick). She checked with Dr Sch and confirmed back that I could schedule my hysteroscopy immediately if we want to. Also, if we were scheduling it, I need not get onto the progesterone suppositories to bring on AF.

Today we got everything scheduled. We are going to Denver on Tuesday. I have my hysteroscopy scheduled for the afternoon. After the procedure, Dr. Schoolcraft will spend some time with DH and me, going over the findings and his suggestions for next steps.

If he says it’s something that can be fixed easily, then they will try and squeeze everything in during that trip itself. i.e. If I have to have surgery, we will stay on in Denver for a couple of days and get the procedure done. We already have a hotel room booked (which we have been postponing week by week for the last month or so) {Remember my $34 a night hotel deal?? That’s the one I’m talking about!}

If he finds nothing wrong with the uterus, then we will discuss with him what our next steps should be. If we don’t have to stay for any further procedures, we fly back the same night.

In the meantime, I have started reaching out within my network to see if there are any jobs available. I’m feeling a little better mentally, and yes, now, when I look back, it was the right thing to do to call off the cycle. Thank you all of you for your support the other day. It's relieving to know everyone agreed that I wasn't being foolish calling the cycle off.

24 comments:

margelina said...

I am happy you are drug free and feeling better. You and your dh seem like a great team and can handle anything together, sensibly!

Lisa said...

Nikki - that sounds like a great plan! I am so glad that you will be able to do it sooner than later - I have had some serious IVF fatigue and I know how good it feels to take action.

I love being off of the drugs too - it is amazing what an effect they have on us.

Lorraine said...

This sounds like absolutely the right thing to do. Plus, looking for a job will at least be a distraction - always good in the endless waiting periods.

Good luck with the peek inside!

Caroline said...

Hi Nikki,
You sound so much better. Calling off the cycle was the right thing to do. You are still moving forward... Tuesday is just around the corner. I will be waiting to hear how it goes, and I'll be thinking of you.

Just Caz said...

Its great that your moving forward so quickly.
No time to waste.
Enjoy your drug free days!!
Hmm that sounds a little wrong..
But I'm sure it feels great!!!

Chhandita said...

You sound relaxed, which is just so good... And I am happy that you are reaching out and checking the job market. Am sure something really good will turn up your way soon. It has to, with so many people cheering you on...

Darya said...

Good luck Nikki!!! I really hope everything goes as good as it possibly can. You are making all of the right decisions. Maybe you can start making decisions for me too? ;-)

DAVs said...

You are definitely a woman of action! I'm glad you have a quick plan in place and I'm crossing my fingers the hystero doesn't find anything that can't be easily dealt with.

Anonymous said...

Nikki,

The fact that your mind is able to make sensible decisions provides me a high level of confidence that the drug affects are temporary and you might do it all this time!

I am damm proud of you woman!I send you a lot of spiritual energy to complete this journey...

strongblonde said...

i'm still so sad that this cycle had to be cancelled, but i totally agree with you. you want to have a good lining since you have good frozen embryos! let's give them the best chance, right?

i hope that dr. s has some insight as to what is going on :)

xoxo

mlg- believe-n-miracles said...

I am so glad that you are feeling better, I can tell with what you write that you feel liberated and more in control, that is so great!
I am proud of you!
I will be waiting for your update on Tuesday.

Jill M. said...

Sounds like a great plan of action. Enjoy your drug free time!

Anonymous said...

Nik,

I have something very exciting to propose to you and DH. WHile you are job hunting and in Denver, Why don't you'll polish this blog and try to get the contents into something to be published very soon?
The information and all the comments are one of the most poignant and inspiring book and title it-- Exploring the mystery of life"

You might win a Booker prize..

Love and lots of creative energy to you

Anonymous said...

And you wondered where your life is leading you after 8 years??:)

May be a writer and a humanitarian who will provide joy so much courage...

A hellen keller in the making...


Who knows...?? This is your job and you are not yet aware.....

:)....

Fashionably Infertile said...

I am so glad you have all your next steps in place. Enjoy your drug free days! I am sure you will get some answers from CCRM. I am sending your lots of positive vibes. Keep us updated hun!

Sky said...

Enjoy a glass of wine with your drug free state! :)

bunny said...

it sounds like you are channeling all your energy into taking care of business and getting things done-- looking forward to hearing updates and hopefully good news!

i'm glad you are feeling better- i am in a drug induced haze right now and know how much clarity and energy can be gained from clearing out the system.

Sue said...

Doesn't it feel so freeing to be off of the meds? It always feels like such a relief to me. Usually even dims a bad result.

Great plan! Hope all goes well and I can't wait wait to follow along!

MamaSoon said...

You sound amazing. I love it. I am leaving tomorrow or I would have loved to meet for coffee. I hope the hysteroscopy goes great. Enjoy your drug free days.

Lavanya said...

Good luck with tomorrow, I'll be thinking of you.Keep us posted.

Linda said...

I'm so glad that you have a plan. Sometimes the hardest part, at least for me, is not having a plan. I wish you the best of luck with your hysteroscopy!!

I Believe in Miracles said...

I hope all goes well!! Crossing fingers for you that you get the best news possible.
~~HUGS~~

PS - made tikki chicken masala the other night and thought of you. It was tasty, despite marinating the chicken in vanilla vs. plain yogurt. oops. :o)

Clio said...

yeay to being drug free!
it's good to feel like yourself, isn't it?
how great that the procedure is already scheduled so you'll get some answers and hopefully it's something very simple and quick that will make all the difference when you start this cycle again.
good luck!

banditgirl said...

Indu, I can feel the relief and positive energy from this post. It totally inspires me to take things step by step and be in the moment and give myself permission to be TTC-free for at least a couple of days. I put down your Denver date in my calendar and hopefully upon your return we can get together!