Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Cheer me up

Anyone have any words of wisdom to pull me out of the dumps? Any jokes? Any anecdotes? 

Today is one of those days when I feel like I need a hug. OK, yesterday was one of those days too. 

Just feeling defeated and weak. Like I'm a fool for trying so long and fighting so hard. I don't know what I can expect out of one last IVF. I don't know if I'm being too hopeful by even proceeding with that one last IVF. 

Feel like I hate my life and everything around it right now. 

11 comments:

Earl Gearl said...

I saw a joke on a billboard this morning on the way to work.

What do you call a grizzly bear with no teeth?

A gummy bear!

Big hugs. Only you can decide how to proceed. I, for one, don't think you are a fool for trying one last time. You never know what will happen and if it was me, I would question myself for the rest of my life if I didn't try. I hope things start getting better for you.

I Believe in Miracles said...

I'm so sorry that you're feeling blue. It's always a tough place to be in. I hear you big time!!

I have 2 jokes for you. The first one we heard last night on 2 and a half men and the second is the only joke hubby has memorized:
"Where do girls with good figures work? hooters.
Where do girls with one leg work? ihop!"

What is ET short for?
~He has little legs.

Email me if you ever want to vent/talk ifnitysmith at gmail dot com. I'm hear for you. I'll be praying for both of us.

**HUGS**

Nichole said...

First of all...((BIG HUGS))

Second of all...I really suck at telling jokes, so I won't try, but I am giving you a huge cyber hug!

Jewels said...

~Big Squishy Hug~

I’ve been reading “The Infertility Cure” – It’s an ancient Chinese wellness program, maybe you’ve heard of it, but the chapter I’m on is talking about western medicine and IVF and all the hell women go through to have IVF, I was crying last night for you and everyone who has been though it and will go through it.
I can’t even imagine what you’re going through. My heart and prayers really go out to you..
I honestly don’t think I would ever have the strength to go through what your going through, it’s such a bi*ch too because what do we do? Give up when there’s still options?
Then again I didn’t think I’d have the strength to go through what I’ve gone through, but some how I look back and think “How did I get here – and where am I going?” Scares me to death so I find my self taking many mini brain vacations. I’m hardly blogging right now because I need that - ummm – mini vacation – er - mental denial? Something other than this.

Okay, let’s give you a cheer up joke.
A clean one.
What did the ocean say to the boat?

Nothing… It just waved =D

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Now a blonde joke

Blind guy walks into a women’s bar.
Sits down, orders a drink, all the women staring at him wondering why he’s there.
He then says
“Hey – I have a blonde joke for ya”
The bartender says “Um-hum, before you go off telling your Blonde Joke, let me just warn you that we have a female body builder sitting to your right. A female boxer sitting to your left, I have a black belt in self defense, the bouncer is a woman who is 6’ 3” and can take down an alligator, and there’s a table behind you with three women who are into pro wrestling – and we’re all blonde”
The blind man thinks for a few seconds and says “Ahh – never mind, I don’t want to have to explain the joke 7 times”.
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I hope you have a better day soon. I’m thinking about you.

Darya said...

((((((HUGS)))))))

You are anything but a fool. You are a VERY strong & couragous woman who knows it's not over yet. My friend, the least you can expect is that you did EVERYTHING you could and the most you can expect is the ultimate prize, of course. I won't repeat what I emailed you but you know there is still hope, I know you do.

I think this may be pms so another big ((((HUG))))

Shelby said...

:( I wish I was in the SJ. I would give you a smothering hug! Hey, if you're up to it (I know it's far, so I understand if not), the San Francisco Open Path offices have their drop in support group next Tuesday. I'll be there, so it won't be such foreign territory. In the mean time, give me a call ANYTIME! I will give you phone hugs instead. :)


I wish I could give you some positive vibes, but like you, I've been feeling hopeless and crummy lately, too and no amount of tequila dancing cougar ladies could pull me out. I really can't remember any jokes either. I kinda suck at telling them anyway as I always get the order and punch line wrong. I absolutely don't think you're a full for pursuing this next step. I think if you were, Dr. Sch would've been the one to tell you so!

Mucho **HUGS** to you. :)

Lisa said...

You are NOT stupid for trying again! I can promise you that. You deserve happiness. You deserve it to work. You deserve this to be your time. It's okay to hope, even when the world shakes their head, even when you have no reason to hope. There is always room for hope. That is how dreams come true. Hold onto it. And give it one more shot. You never know. This could be the one! It really could be. And I hope it is. I really hope and pray all your dreams come true!!!

Lisa said...

Nikki, You are NOT a fool for trying again. You are just human, wanting something so badly. I admire you for going after what you want and giving it one last try. You never know. This could be the one! And I hope it is!! You have to hold onto hope and go for your dreams. That is how dreams come true. By hoping. And trying our best.

Stay strong. And don't give up. Miracles are possible. I beleive that. That is why I'm giving it one more shot too!

Lisa

Jackie. said...

What do you call 100 rabbits in row walking backwards?

A receding hare line.

Whacka wacka.

Jackie. said...

Why didn't the skeleton cross the road?

It didn't have the guts.

Wacka wacka.

Jackie. said...

So this mushroom walks into a bar.

And the bartender says, "We don't serve your kind here."

And the mushroom says, "Why not? I'm a fungi."

Wacka wacka.

I swear, that was the last one.

Huge hugs,
Jackie