Our roller coaster ride through infertility and more: Awww!!!!!

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Awww!!!!!

Most of my posts in the recent past have been heavy, emotional ones. I think it's high time I put out something for people to smile at. This video made me smile - a lot! And of course reminded me of why I want a baby girl so bad!! Enjoy!

(The video is courtesy youtube - but I think it's ok to put it here since blogger and youtube are both part of google anyway!)

17 comments:

Jill M. said...: That's hilarious!!! Cracked me up when she started spankin herself. Thanks for sharing; March 31, 2009 at 2:40 PM
Charlotte said...: Thanks for the laugh!!! That was great!; March 31, 2009 at 5:41 PM
Darya said...: OMG thanks so much for putting that up...HILARIOUS!!! I really needed a good laugh!!; March 31, 2009 at 5:41 PM
C said...: So funny!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and I simply love the name Arianna....; March 31, 2009 at 9:54 PM
Sue said...: That is so cute. Her momma better watch out! She is too cute and can really shake it!; April 1, 2009 at 5:23 AM
banditgirl said...: OMG, I just loved it, especially since at my Naked Lady Party we totally boogied to this, so perfect timing!; April 1, 2009 at 9:38 AM
Elle Charlie said...: Hahaha, so cute!; April 1, 2009 at 10:11 AM
Anonymous said...: That's cute! My DD who is almost 2 does the same thing when she sees music/dancing on tv!
Very cute!
Glad you're feeling a little better!
Kaila; April 1, 2009 at 1:16 PM
DAVs said...: That's *almost* as funny as the J. Timberlake version!; April 1, 2009 at 4:53 PM
Caroline said...: Nikki, I needed a laugh. Thanks for stopping by to check in on me this week. It has been a tough one and I've appreciated your support. Hugs to you my friend,
Caroline x; April 1, 2009 at 6:55 PM
momsoon said...: Man-thats awesome?!They better keep both eyes on that one...
I agree with DAVS, Justin can really do the beyonce head thing and looks great in pantyhose & heels...; April 2, 2009 at 6:39 AM
Anonymous said...: awesome.. absolutely loved it..:); April 2, 2009 at 9:34 AM
Petrucia said...: this is hilarious and soooooo cute!
it reminded me of when I was a little girl too. I'd have totally done that. And for the parents, how cool that they got this in video! imagine for Arianna to see it when she grows up?!!!; April 2, 2009 at 10:58 AM
What IF? said...: Too cute! I'm stopping by to say thanks for all the support you've been giving me on my blog, even though I haven't been posting much during the 2ww. I appreciate it - you always leave these level-headed comments that give me much-needed perspective!; April 3, 2009 at 7:08 PM
Lisa said...: Thanks for the laugh! Too cute!; April 4, 2009 at 4:11 PM
Charlotte said...: new blog...new "identity" I'll be posting on here soon.; April 5, 2009 at 7:48 AM
Kris said...: Too cute! LOL!:); April 5, 2009 at 9:43 AM

Our TTC Resume

Me: 38

DH: 37

Married in June 1997

Started TTC: June 2001.

2002: Saw OBGYN. 3 Clomid cycles - all BFN.

2003: Saw RE. 3 more rounds of Clomid / 5 rounds of IUIs (2 with injectables) - All BFN. Time to move on to IVF - but our insurance didn't cover it, and we couldn't afford to do it out of pocket.

2004: I injured my knee - had to have 2 surgeries to reconstruct it. So TTC was on the back burner.

Also got new job with IF coverage on the insurance.

2005: IVF#1. 29 eggs retrieved, 21 fertilized, 15 survived till day 3. 2 embryos transferred, 13 embryos frozen. BFN.

2006: Break from TTC.

2007: Went back to RE and demanded explanation for our BFNs. We were unexplained - nothing was ever off in our tests. Demanding additional testing pushed them into checking our karyotypes. DH's came back with a balanced translocation.

Changed RE - went to one that would do PGD for us.

Thawed our frozen embryos - PGD revealed all abnormal. FET cancelled. This was August 2007.

Oct 07: Fresh IVF #2. 17 eggs retrieved - 10 survived for biopsy. 1 normal after PGD. day 5 transfer - BFP!!!! Beautiful heartbeat u/s etc. Unfortunately m/c in the 9th week. D&C Nov 07. No frozen embies.

March/ April 08: Fresh IVF #3. 14 eggs retrieved - 9 biopsied. 1 normal - but not of great quality. Chemical pregnancy - first Beta was 10, then 5. No frozen embies.

June 08: Fresh IVF#4 - 17 eggs retrieved - 11 biopsied. 2 normal - BFP. Turned out to be ectopic which could not be found on u/s.

First they did a D&C, and when my HcG rose after that, they gave me a methotrexate shot. It took weeks for my Hcg normals to return to negative. No frozen embryos.

August 08: Our RE wanted us to talk to CCRM - "fresh pair of eyes" etc. Consulted CCRM and they called us for a 1 day work up.

Sep 08: 1 day work up in CCRM - they found my uterus to be T shaped (Why nobody saw it in so many years will always be a mystery to me)

Oct 08: Surgery to fix the shape of my uterus.

Dec 08: Post op Hysteroscopy - my uterus now looks normal. We can proceed with IVF#5!

Jan 09: Fresh IVF#5 - 31 eggs retrieved, 24 mature, 14 fertilized via ICSI, 6 made it to day 5. PGD done on day 5. 4 blasts normal! This was a freeze all cycle.

Feb 09: Preparing for FET - lining would not grow. After being postponed week after week for 3 weeks, we cancelled the FET.

Mar 09: Went to Denver for hysteroscopy to rule out any scar tissue / adhesions etc in my uterus. Currently on break from prepping for FET. Will decide in a couple of months and continue from there.

"Unborn" - Written in April 2008

Whose eyes would you have had?
Would you be like Mom or like Dad?
Would your hair be light or would it be dark?
No matter how you would be, you'd still be our spark

Are you sister and brother
Taking care of each other?
Or were you two little girls
Your Mommy's two little pearls?

I wish we could touch your tiny feet
I wish we could hear your heart beat
I'd give anything to be able to kiss your fingers
You left unborn, but your memory still lingers

There is no healing, time dulls the pain
Time can't stop me from thinking of you again and again
I've cried tears in silence, I've cried myself to sleep
Nothing to hold on to, only some memories to keep

You're in a safer place, is what Dadda tells me
But I want nothing more than to have you here with me
To hold, to love, to cherish and nourish
To finally see our dreams fulfilled and see our family flourish

We'll meet in heaven some day
When we can all get together and play
Till then, watch over us and see us through this fight
For sometimes we falter and it's hard to see the light.

"Empty Arms" - written on Dec 16, 2007

You came into our lives
We thanked God for you each day
God had different plans
And He took you away

You were our biggest ray of hope
That so far we had seen
You made us Mommy and Daddy
Though short your stay has been

Your eight weeks were short
So quickly you were gone
We are left remembering your loss
When we were imagining you being born

We are left with empty arms
That were longing to hold you close
We are left with shattered hearts
Wondering why it wasn't us God chose

We hold on to your memories
With tears in our eyes
We wish we could turn back time
We wish God would hear our cries

Be safe, dear Angel
You were loved by Mom and Dad
We miss you and are so so sorry
You would have been the biggest joy we would have had.

Our roller coaster ride through infertility and more

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Awww!!!!!

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Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Awww!!!!!

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"Unborn" - Written in April 2008

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