Can I say EEEWWWW??????? I went on Youtube, and looked for videos of D&C. I came across one which was in some other language (thankfully), but I watched it. GROSS!!!!! I am now totally and completely freaked out at what they are going to do to me tomorrow. There is no solace that I've gone through it before and survived!
Oh my god, I should have stayed clear of that video. Tomorrow when I get in there, I am probably going to ask for extra anesthesia or something!
On a serious note - I am ready for tomorrow. I am ready to move on. I am beginning to grow some hope in my heart, and am beginning to look ahead. I mean, that's who I am, isn't it? Cheerful, hopeful, and fighting fate. It's like that commercial on TV that says "I have cancer, cancer doesn't have me".
I will not let IF have me. I will not give up without fighting to the last ounce of fight left in me. I realize that I have made some wonderful friends in the virtual world - I wish I could meet some of you some day. That would be awesome right? Fight IF, get our families by any means legally possible (to steal Carolyn's quote). Once we've all done that, how about we have that Baby Splendor party that poor Joy got invited to so insensitively? We'll do it, and we'll invite only the IF's, to celebrate our strength and sensitivity!
On that note, I'm going to sign off for a couple of days. I don't know if I will be in any position to post tomorrow. But I will post when I am able to.