Done!

I'm back, taking it easy, and feeling like a load has been lifted off my shoulders.

Dr M was there - and can I confess that I love him? He has all the makings of a great RE, and I can see why I didn't like his colleague who did my u/s and informed me of my miscarriage. He stood by my head while his assistant was doing the preliminary u/s today, and while they were starting my "conscious sedation" medication. He stroked my forehead while he talked to me. I had to stop myself from bursting into tears! 

He said he doesn't think it's ectopic (considering the HcG went up, it MAY have been ectopic), but that it's obvious that it's not viable. He could have waited for my body to realize and let the HcG go down on it's own, but it's gone on for 2 weeks now, and he said he could understand my frustration and despair, and he thought it would be best to do a D&C and put me out of my misery. Once we have put this behind us we can discuss future plans. I told him I have an appointment with him coming up and he said we would sit and talk then. He said he was sorry for all the heartache I've been through.

There was still almost nothing visible on the u/s. My ovaries are still very very enlarged (that explains my bloating). The lining in my uterus was very thick and he said that looked like the only sign of conception. Removing the lining would itself cause my body to lower the HcG. 

I go back tomorrow for a repeat blood test - if the HcG has gone down significantly, PHEW! Then I just get monitored down to 0. If it stays hanging or goes up - then we have a bigger problem. That could still mean it's ectopic, and being small is not being detected by u/s, though we've repeated u/s 3 times now. So fingers crossed for a lowered HcG tomorrow. 

Man - I sound like a medico, don't I? We all end up reading and researching so much, and then we listen and understand what our doctors say, and to a layman, all us IFer's must sound like geeks! LOL!!