Monday, August 25, 2008

Big Fat File

We have our phone consult with CCRM tomorrow morning. The other day, one of their nurses / coordinators called, and I asked if all my documents had reached them. The new patient paperwork that I sent, along with the medical records that my current clinic sent. She said - and I quote verbatim - "Oh yeah, we got a big fat file here" 

I didn't know whether to laugh or cry - a big fat file consisting of medical records, and history of failure after failure - a file which is now so heavy that I feel sorry for my RE when he walks into the room with it. I can almost picture him needing a trolley to carry my file soon - he will drag the trolley behind him as he enters the room. And then he'll need a ladder to climb up to open the file and read it! 

Anyway - the idea is to find SOMETHING in that big fat file, and I'm sending Dr Sch all the "vibes" that I can. Find something......find something.....find something......

Tomorrow at this time I will hopefully be more informed, closer to a decision, and hopefully happier. As usual, my process oriented mind has questions prepared, which I've shared with DH.  I've asked him to think of questions too. I will write down my questions today, just to make sure we don't forget anything during our audience with the doc tomorrow. 

In a way - tomorrow's discussion is going to be one of the most important doctor "visits" that we have had. It's our last ditch attempt, and we've thrown everything into it.

Watch this space tomorrow - there should be an exciting update! 


Earl Gearl said...

Good luck tomorrow Nikki! I'm so excited for you to be taking this next step and I hope it finds answers for you!

Darya said...

Good luck!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hope the RE does find something and says 'aha...all we need to do is....'

I'll be thinking of you and sending lots of positive vibes your way. I'll be on the edge of my seat waiting for your update.

g said...

best of luck to you.. cant wait to hear what he has to say!

Shelby said...

I can definitely relate to the 'big fat file'. My new RE's office was shocked when I hand delivered it (to mail it would have been more costly!) and plunked it down in front of them. I think I'm infamous there for the size of it as a few staff members I've never met actually have referenced it.

Anyhow, I really, really hope you're on your way to good stuff with CCRM. A new path is ahead!

Jackie. said...

I am wishing you some serious FIND SOMETHING vibes for your appointment tomorrow. I hope that this time they find something different so that you have an excellent chance to conceive and you have the newfound hope that you deserve. I am glad that you are so prepared. Is one of your questions, "What the h---?" (I hope that this made you laugh a little. if not, I'm really really sorry.) I'll be thinking of you!

Lavanya said...

Good luck with the consult tomorrow Nikki. I hope you have good news by this time tomorrow,you will be in my prayers.Cant wait to hear your update...I hope that we start a new cycle at the same time :)let's see