Big Fat File

We have our phone consult with CCRM tomorrow morning. The other day, one of their nurses / coordinators called, and I asked if all my documents had reached them. The new patient paperwork that I sent, along with the medical records that my current clinic sent. She said - and I quote verbatim - "Oh yeah, we got a big fat file here" 

I didn't know whether to laugh or cry - a big fat file consisting of medical records, and history of failure after failure - a file which is now so heavy that I feel sorry for my RE when he walks into the room with it. I can almost picture him needing a trolley to carry my file soon - he will drag the trolley behind him as he enters the room. And then he'll need a ladder to climb up to open the file and read it! 

Anyway - the idea is to find SOMETHING in that big fat file, and I'm sending Dr Sch all the "vibes" that I can. Find something......find something.....find something......

Tomorrow at this time I will hopefully be more informed, closer to a decision, and hopefully happier. As usual, my process oriented mind has questions prepared, which I've shared with DH.  I've asked him to think of questions too. I will write down my questions today, just to make sure we don't forget anything during our audience with the doc tomorrow. 

In a way - tomorrow's discussion is going to be one of the most important doctor "visits" that we have had. It's our last ditch attempt, and we've thrown everything into it.

Watch this space tomorrow - there should be an exciting update!